Chicken Pocks

i've caught chicken pox off my little bro today. i feel terrible. i had a very bad fever last night and today i've got the spots all over my body. My limbs also feel sore. The pain in my shoulder was so bad that i had to take panadol to numb it. It feels likes its been cracked against the wall. With these spots i've officially become the pimple freak from hell. i think i have more spots than a dalmation.

i made it to 21

My birthday bbq went ok. Or ok as i had intented. i expected the weather to be really bad which it turned out to be. i tried to get the venue changed to my house, but i couldn't contact enough people so i had it at heathcote. The weather seemed perfect. Too bad i felt sick like i had to go to the toilet. It was kinda worse that there was a window next to the toilet that had a gap open which would not close. Anyone who was in the carpark could see me chucking one of the worse craps in my life. Well afterwards the rain came. Everybody ran like crazy to the cars. i then had it moved to my house to finish off the food. i was kinda shocked that my parents bought a massive cake. i specifically said, "NO CAKE". Oh well. For the past few days i've been having cake for breakfast. Kinda yummy but not very healthy. Maybe i'll die of a heart attack now i'm 21. i never expected to make it but it looks like i have to live with it now. i still got stuff to do.

Abundance of weener

i've been trying to organise a bbq for my birthday this Sunday. Weather forecast says showers so i'm hoping for divine intervention. Major bummer to have rain when its summer. i blame global warming. Stoopid countries who produce lots of greenhouse gases and even worse the countries that support the countries who makes lots of greenhouse gases. Yeah, you know who i'm talking about. Only 2 countries didn't sign the damn Kyoto protocol. i'm in one of them. Now climate change seems to be making it rain on my 21st birthday. Also most of my friends are male and most of my cousins are male, so its gonna be like a big MALE BBQ with an abundance of weener. Uber bummer. The bbq is gonna look really gay. Literally.

Finished Uni

i've finished my last exam on friday and have officially finished all my uni studies. The exam went ok. i was afraid i didn't write enough notes before the exam but a lot of what i DID write appeared in the exam so it was pretty good for me. i dunno whats it gonna be like now. No more uni. Have to start looking for work then. i wanted to do a manual part time job which would be really cool but my parents won't let me because i would have a uni degree. They want me to start in an office straight away. i can't understand them. They always make it difficult. i've been playing Super Mario and Megaman recently. Platform games are kinda cool coz u can run real fast and shoot bad guys and jump crazy distances. i also have to start planning my birthday bbq too. i thought i would be really depressed after i finish uni but luckily i don't seem to be feeling that way. i'm glad i have contact details of my uni friends. For the past 2 weeks i have been using Mozilla Firefox coz somehow Internet Explorer stopped working. It's pretty cool. Theres tabs which is pretty useful. Yesterday i tried to install the new printer which my dad bought. It literally chewed up every sheet of paper that it tried to roll through. We took it back to the shops and exchanged it for another one. This one worked perfectly. Its an Epson Stylus Photo R210. It can print on cds which is pretty cool. i'm having a bit of trouble installing the ink check software which tells the computer how much ink is left. i would be in the garden today mowing the lawn and digging up weeds. Our garden is filled with flowers which would be good if they weren't all weeds.

November Rain

i know am i'm sensitive so i have to deal with it. i know i get hurt easily so i have to deal with it. i'm still alive and i'd rather know and see what kills me first. So bring it on.

"Sometimes I need some time...on my own
Sometimes I need some time...all alone" -Guns N' Roses

Cool song. It kinda reflects my pain so i don't have to feel it.

ICT325 Exam

i think i did quite well in the exam today. i understood all the questions and wrote heaps on them. i dunno what happened after the exams. It could be the last time that i would see some of my uni friends so i was kinda sad. i really dunno what to do. i thought i could keep being happy, but apparently not. Nobody understands. Bummer, i feel down again. i might as well try a little bit harder. Thats what everyone says. They just don't know how difficult it is i guess. My next exam is next week on Friday. After that i would be walking on the unknown. Lost as ever.

Project Presentations

i went to look at my friends' project presentations yesterday. They were really good. Later we spent the day talking about crap. At the end of all the presentations we all went to the Kardinya tavern coz there was a free bar tab. i only had coke though coz i was driving. It was alright...people talking and laughing and stuff. i played pool with my friends and lost every game. It was kinda sad for me coz it could be the last time hanging around with my uni friends. All the crap we've been through and we're at the end. Its like completing a very good RPG game. Now its like i have to find something else to do. After the tavern i drove Jamie back to uni for him to sober up. We somehow met Sue in the ps labs. Yeh we haven't seen Sue for ages, so i guess its kinda like fate that we should see as much of our uni friends as possible. Ok i have to study for my exam on wednesday and try not to think too much about my personal problems.

Triple Crown

i went to Triple Crown on Friday. It was alright but wasn't really special. Before Triple Crown, i went to Jonny's place where we hanged out for a while. Jonny somehow drank a dozen bottles of beer. We then went to another friend's house down the road where we chilled and watched Britney Spears on DVD. i can't believe that Jonny secretly left for Triple Crown. i guess i can forgive him coz he was really drunk. i was probably the only sober one around at Jonny's friends house. Later i offered to take Kerren and a couple of drunk people to Triple Crown so they wouldn't have to pay for a Taxi. At Triple Crown the place was packed. i met some uni friends talked with them and later i drank a little. i wish i had more tolerance coz i lose myself too easily...Kerren, drunk as ever, pulled me with him onto a small, raised stage packed with people. i was a little out of it and dancing a while when suddenly Kerren fell off the stage. Luckily he was all right. We decided to go to Metros in Freo. i wanted to go coz i never been before. i didn't know where it was so i kinda forced Kerren into my car so he could direct me. It was pretty hard to stop him jumping into bushes and fighting with his friends. i also took a couple of other people with me to Metros. We ate a little at Hungry Jacks across the road from it. Anyways i think Metros was pretty crap that night. The music was really bad. i left the place around 2 and drove home. On Saturday i played Resident Evil 2 on the computer. i forced my lil bro to watch me play it coz i'm too scared to play it alone. Zombies seem to jump out of walls and windows and one way mirrors. i finished the game today. Thinking about goin to uni tomorrow to study...

Stoopid paragraph

i'm supposed to finish a journal by friday, but its really hard to get focused. i've written a paragraph and have been staring at the same paragraph for the last few days. Not good progress. Argghh. i'm goin to the Triple Crown party on Friday. i've always been making excuses not to go on all the previous years, but since this is my final year i feel like i have an obligation to go...i wonder what it's gonna be like? Probably a lot of drunk people...i just finished watchin Spiderman 2 on dvd. It's not bad...i'm gonna try and work on my journal now. i hope nothing distracts me.

Looking out the window

i was looking out the window on a rainy afternoon and noticed a couple of pigeons underneath a shrub taking shelter from the rain. i quickly took a few photos of them together. They look pyscho cute together. It reminded me of what i don't have and what i might never have. i'm really happy for the pigeons but very sad for myself. i wish i can fly away from my life. Ben's birthday party yesterday was alrite. Lots of good food is always good. Lots of his relatives were there. i played pool with Daniel, Adrian and Ben until late in the night. Almost fell asleep at his place. i've had a very rough week. i wanted to sleep and rest today but didn't get a chance. i've been doing too many things for other people and not enough time for myself. i'm losing the chances to take my stress out of my mind.

At least i know for sure

i can't even remember what day i asked her... it was probably on Tuesday. i was glad we could talk over it properly, but also extremely sad. i couldn't let out any tears, but i was probably all ripped apart inside. A minute after when i left, it started raining. i'm not feeling anything inside me anymore. More like empty. It's been a tough week, i dunno how to get over it. i feel like more than a year has been wasted. Oh well, nothing i can do about it. Ben's birthday party is this Saturday. Haven't seen him in ages or the rest of the other guys.

Past memories

i've been thinking a lot about the past during the weekend. Kinda makes me sad that i'm gonna be saying goodbye to uni life soon. i had a lot of fun and made many friends. i'm gonna miss the time i had with friends in ECL labs and then later in PS labs. i might even miss all the late nights i spend in the labs. Its been a place where i could do homework in peace and meditate and reflect on my life. Its also a place where i chilled with many friends as we did uni work. i spent all of yesteday night capturing 2 tapes of holiday video from the dv camera to the computer. Took 3 hours to burn it on dvd. i let the computer auto shut after the burning completes. When i woke up today the computer was switched off, but the dvd burner drive was ejected with the finished dvd. i tested the dvd and the quality on it was very very good. Much more better and clearer than vcd. However it did take some time though. The two videos in the computer took 15 GIGS. The price we pay for quality. i'm at uni at the moment. Spent the past couple of hours organising my bag again. Also printed out lecture notes and readings.

Finished Assignment!

i spent the past week working on my assignment and finally finished it today and uploaded it 10 mins before the deadline. Also i've seem to have caught a really bad cold, but luckily i'm over the worst of it. i am relieved that i have no more critiques to write up. However uni seems to be nearly ending for me so i guess i have to start looking for a job soon. Bummer. i don't know how to feel about everything. i don't know a lot of things... even the things that i think are important for me to know.

Heavy load of homework

At uni again. Been here since 8:30am. Actually not entirely at uni. In the afternoon i went to Garden City with a friend. That was kinda good to get out and relax a bit. But back at uni now and its so boring. i saw a lot of friends today. i guess that's good. Had lunch/dinner with Christy and Jamie at Hungry Jacks. i have to cut back on my junk food intake. Right now i'm a loner at uni. Assignment is coming along fine, but haven't started work on the critiques yet. i was allowed to delay my critique from last week, so now i have two whole critiques to write up. i hope i get at least one critique done tonight. Uber bummer...

Sleeping at uni

i'm in the uni labs again working on assignment. Or at least trying to work on it. Fell asleep a few times whilst listening to music on my zen. i'll probably stay here till around 12. Hopefully i'll get a third of it done. i saw my tutor here a while ago... she said i did well in my previous assignment. i hope she didn't mistake me for another Chris. There's like 2 other Chris's in the same tute. The assignment i'm supposed to be doin now is terribly boring. Bummer. Noone in the labs now. At least i got my zen to fight the quiet mechanical hum of computers and air-cons. i summon punk, rock, jpop, dance, chinese and country music! i'll try not to fall asleep again. Back to uber boring assignment. Have to stay sane.

i think i already know

So...yeh, i think i already know how its gonna turn out...but just don't have the guts to face it..i'll try again tomorrow. Also last thursday my lil bro blew up the computer. He didn't really blow it on purpose, but it died on him. i decided to open it up and have a look. i noticed that a few capacitators were blown or leaking...not good.

Thats the mother board after i removed all the graphics card, modem, firewire, sound and network cards. Below is the obsolete geforce 2 mx 64 mb graphics card:

Here is a pic of the creative sound card:

And our firewire card:

And network card:


And internal modem:


Heres me taking apart the big ass fan/heatsink from the cpu (pentium 4 1.6 ghz):


Pics of the Pentium 4 1.6 Ghz CPU:


So we got a new computer upgrade on the weekend. i picked it up today after uni. Our new computer has the old 40 Gb hard drive as the primary drive, and an extra 120 Gb hard drive as its slave. Also has an additional 512mb ddr RAM over the existing 256 ddr RAM. Has a Intel Celeron 2.8GHz and a new motherboard which has already a network slot and also 6 USB 2.0 ports. We also got a new case and dvd burner for it. The graphics card, firewire and modem has been transferred to the new mother board. When i turn on the computer, everything looks the same, because we used our old hard drive as the primary drive. The only difference is it can now burn dvds and is slightly bigger and faster. i'm kinda happy with it. It helps take my mind off current things that are disturbing me.

have to wait again

Looks like i'll have to wait till tomorrow before i know...another unexpected turn in my life...bummer. i finished my essay at 2:30pm yesterday. i think i did quite good...gonna spend the day writing up a critique. Am at uni now waiting for my sis to do her group work with her group so i can give her a lift back. i wonder how long she'll take? Lucky i got my zen with me. i have so many hours of music to listen to. And it charges through the USB port of a computer. =) It's very convenient.

Feeling lost atm

The unexpected always comes for me. Things never turn out the way i expected even when i thought i planned for everything. Really dunno how to feel. Am so lost as always. Bummer i still have to finish my 3000 essay by 3pm today. Thats a little over 5 hours from now. i wonder if it can make it in time? Its so hard to think right now. Its worth 30% of my final grade. Maybe i should think of how i'll feel after i've finished it. Relieved? Hmmm tempting. Promised myself to not keep my hopes up so i guess i shouldn't...i wonder whats gonna happen tomorrow? i just need to know.

Always more uni work

i presented my seminar yesterday. Talked for about half an hour...got a HD for it!! =) i've just spent over an hour sorting through all the readings and lecture notes and marked submissions in my bag. Took me so long to organise all the paper. But at least i got it done. Now i have to write up my journals which are due tomorrow. i should be able to finish it by today. And then on the weekend i have to do a 3000 word essay. =( It never ends, i'm gonna die doin homework. i hardly see any of my friends anymore. They all seem to have disappeared... maybe its coz they graduated already or are doin different units. Bummer, alone again. What else is new?

Wats wrong with this world?

http://www.komotv.com/stories/38000.htm

All i can say is WAT THE F***
Some people really have nothing better to do...and they get themselves killed in the most amusing way. Animals is bad enough, but what sicko in their right mind would take on a HORSE? What shocked me is that it seems to be legal in Washington State. This is proof that we live in a F***** up world with lots of crazy people. Crazy people die from doing crazy things...or more like Sicko people die from doing sicko things. Moral of the story: Don't be gay and don't take on a horse.

Eagles Lost =(

Bummer. Eagles only lost by 4 points. i hate Sydney...they play so dirty. i'm at uni now doin the critique for the week. Gotta try to focus a little more. i have a lot on my mind. Going to come to uni again tomorrow to start the work for the seminar. Lecturer said it's a hard topic. Bummer again. Still have journals and a 6000 word essay to do. Watched a comedy movie with my cousin on Thursday. It wasn't really that good. i'd prefer a horror even though i'm scared of horror movies. Action movies would be good too. Bummer, i should get back to my massive homework load.

Better now

i'm feeling better now. Or at least better than i was yesterday. i have enough hope to get by, but not so much as i can get crushed again from. i've got other stuff to focus on.. such as my journals, critique, research essay, assignment and a seminar i have to prepare by next week. If i die, i would rather die trying. Pain? i've been through worse.

Torn down

i broke one of the few rules i ever made...never ever to keep my hopes up. Now i feel like i have nothing to live for. i'm really crushed. i need time to think and be alone...i don't want want people barging into this room. LEAVE ME ALONE IDIOTS! Its frigging annoying. i want my privacy...i'm very pissed at the moment. i want to be alone for now. Everybody seems to be disturbing me. i don't want to make it through the week. i can't understand why i was ever born. All i get is misery. There is also uni stuff to worry about. When do i graduate? Why da F*** does everybody ask me that. It has nothing to do with them. Only me. Its really annoying. i have no idea...i have no idea what to do after i graduate. i don't even see myself graduating and finishing uni. No job, no future, no life.

Eagles in Grand Final!

Woopee, i watched the game on TV and it was pretty evenly matched. Crows almost caught up but Eagles managed to kick a couple more goals to stay safe. One of the best games i've seen. They better win the grand final. i've also just finished watching FF7 advent children. Its really awesome. i want a sword like Cloud's. Can be split up into serveral swords or attached together as one. Awesome stuff. Yuffie and Tifa also look extremly attractive...damn animation is getting so realistic now. Fight scenes were extremly entertaining. Makes the Matrix's fight scenes seem extremly dull. Also motorbike chases are so extreme, that the fighters fight on and off their bikes at high speed with melee and ranged weapons. FF7 had one of the greatest story lines ever, and its pretty cool that they use the story to make a movie out of it. Thinking about going to uni tomorrow to write up my critiques and journals. i don't want to get too lazy. i'm also feeling a bit unwell. Maybe i ate too much chicken cacciatore.

Very Confused

i finally finished my assignment and have already uploaded it. i'm gonna relax today and spend the weekend working on the critiques for the week. i asked her out again on wednesday but she says she was busy...i was really down but didn't have much time to dwell on it coz of the assignment. i was really happy when she asked if i wanted to watch a movie with her after the assignment. That was just the day after. It probably didn't mean anything for her though. Honestly girls are very confusing sometimes. i'll probably get torn down into pieces in the end, but i only live once and i still want to try even though i'm expecting to be really hurt later on. i really don't want to keep my hopes up. Thats just suicidal. Hmm so much homework to do. i have to prepare a seminar, start the 3000 word essay, and finish my journals and critiques. Bummer.

Very Happy

i was so happy yesterday...my parents bought me a zen! i promise that i will do anything they say for the next 5 years or until i pay them back. i'm at uni right now listening to it and also writing up my critique for the week. i'll finish in the next 2 hours then i can start on my ICT325 assignment. Also our new neighbours who recently moved in gave us some home cooked muffins. They must be really nice. i can't believe that i have zen that will give me music whenever i need it. Thats already one of my four goals that i have in my life. The remaining three are: a job, a car and a girl.

If i kill myself...

If i do kill myself, i want people to know that for me to kill myself, i would of have to been very sad. So people should take comfort in knowing that i wouldn't be sad anymore if i am gone, whether i disappear completely or if i am in heaven or hell. If i kill myself its because i can't live on with my life anymore so i would probably be doing the right thing to leave and just disappear. Therefore i don't want people to be sad, disappointed or angry that i am gone because they should know that i won't be sad anymore. i also would prefer to be cremated because that would save space. i don't care what happens with my ashes. i'm not gonna kill myself yet, so anybody reading this should not be worried. i'm just writing down my thoughts as they come.

At uni again

Here i am doin essays and stuff at uni. i'm gonna try and get my work done before midnight tonight. Have to write up a 1000 word critique and an outline for a 3000 word essay. i just can't work from home. There's too many distractions. At uni here now and i am the only one in these labs...its so quiet here. All i can hear is the sound of my fingers hitting the keyboard, the quiet humming of the computers and the air conditioning unit. All the computers except this one has a black screen because they're in stand by mode. Kinda peaceful...lonely, but peaceful. i should be able to do my work here.

Google for thought

i think Google is such a successful company. Its not just because its become filthy rich, but because we (or at least i) seem to be using a lot of its services. For example, when we first got the internet, i set google as the homepage because it was nice, clean, simple and took the least amount of time to load up the page. Whenever i wanted to look up something on the net, whether it be music lyrics or code, google was always there to help me. And google also made Gmail. i like gmail a lot because it handles spam very nicely. And also because it holds over a whopping 2GB of email space. Its also loads faster because there isn't any picture ads. i hardly used my old email. Its filled up with hundreds of spam. i would of liked to turn on the function that only enables emails from people within my addressbook, but if i turned that on, i won't be able to recieve any email from my uni. Google also owns blogger, which is pretty cool because i can now experiment a bit with xml stuff and also write down random ramblings and read what other people is rambling on about. Recently i've played with google earth which is fun to use and see places from around the globe. i think its only a matter of time before google takes over the world. i really hope google isn't evil.

Distracted

Hmm...i was supposed to be doin homework, but i keep getting distracted. i downloaded and installed google earth which shows pics everywhere on earth from orbit. It even shows roof tops from houses. If commercial satellites can do this, i wonder what military satelillites can do? Darn i have to go to uni coz i can't find my uni work, and i'm hoping i saved it onto my uni folder at uni. Otherwise i know its on one of the desktops of the many computers i go on. =( i'm hoping i can find it and get it done by 3:30 pm

No more excuses

Ok...i got so much uni work to do but i have a plan. i'm at uni now on a beautiful fine weekend morning. All i have to do is 500 words (1 page) an hour non stop and i'll be home by 8, just in time for dinner. i hope i can do this. i think my uni friends are having a bbq tomorrow, but i don't think i can come coz i have to start on my assignments tomorrow. i hope they're not too disappointed. If i concentrate fully on my uni work then i don't have to think about other stuff too much...thats the theory. Ok gonna start now.

Extrovert or Introvert?

You Are 20% Extrovert, 80% Introvert

You are quite reserved You aren't afraid of social situations... But you very much prefer to go it alone And why not? You're your own best friend!

Are You An Extrovert or An Introvert?

So much to do

Bummer...i really have to put more effort into my uni work. i have to write a critique (1000 words), 3 journals (1200 words each) and then start on my 2 assignments by next week. i wish i had more time...i guess i shouldn't of wasted it playing pac-man. At least i got my high score back now. Hmm, got so much reading and writing to do. Hopefully i'll finish the critique by tonight.

i am ******* lazy and sad

Ok. i was supposed to hand my critique in on Wednesday afternoon, but i haven't. In fact i haven't even started it yet. i know i have a good idea on what to write it on but i just can't do it. i don't think that its just because "the first step is the hardest"...the cold hard honest truth is: i am ******* lazy. i would rather eat corn chips dipped in salsa and lots of bread with lots of margarine. i then think i need more exercise than study...i remember i could do 50 push ups and 100 sit ups easy. Now i'm struggling for 25 and 50. i really need to stay in shape. If i am phsyically ok then i will be mentally too i think. A lot has been going on and i dunno how to handle it. i've been getting a variety of advice, but it doesn't seem to work for me. i thought the fear of rejection would disappear after i have been rejected, but its like me and her are coming closer and getting to know each other more. We're hanging out more than ever, and meeting up even when there's no reason to be. i don't understand...she rejected me, but she's getting closer. Doesn't she understand how i feel? Doesn't she know that everytime i am with her i feel torn between leaving and staying? Even when i know that i will be miserable later, i always and still feel happy when i'm around her. i guess i don't know how to let go. It doesn't help that she wants to meet up on a non teaching week. i want to finish my critique even if i get a zero for its lateness. Then i will exercise until the pain in my head would be nothing compared to the physical pain i will experience. i still have hope even when i know i shouldn't.

So much to read..

i'm at uni at the moment. It's a real cloudy and rainy day. The perfect weather to get some sleep in my bed where it's nice and warm. But unfortunately i have to write a 1000 word critique thats due tomorrow on Strategy Formulation. Theres literally hundreds of pages to read on how to establish and issues concerning IS/IT Strategy processes. It's so boring...i'm still reading through it. Hopefully i'll get it done by tonight. i saw a lot of my friends at uni today. They were all busy with tutorials or assignments or projects. i hope they all do ok. Now, back to my critique.

Clubbing with Cuz

i spent the night clubbing with my cousin last night. i thought she didn't want to go coz it was raining like crazy and she didn't send me an sms. i was enjoying myself watching tv and watching Terminator when she sent me an sms saying, "Hey, r u coming 2nite?", i was like OMG...crazy. i left the house around 9:30 and went to pick up her 3 friends and then drove to the city. We dropped off her 3 friends at Northbridge, and then went to pick up her other friend who lives in woop woop land in Highgate. That was kinda stressful coz we spent a lot of time finding her because we were at the wrong end of the street. We then parked at the carpark and went to Utopia where there was a kareoke party. i saw my other cousin's cousin there, Jess. Talked a little and decided to go to Metros. Had to drive the friend back to Highgate though...My cousin is so nice and caring to her friends. We then went back to Northbridge and danced until our feet hurt. Also, i can't dance. =P i saw Fidea there as well... i see him all the time there and he's always so busy talking to so many different people. Dropped off my cousin and her friends and arrived home at 4am. Hope my cousin is ok coz she seems to be under some stress. Today i woke up at 11am, had breakfast, showered and slept till 7pm. Not surprisingly, i'm not that tired anymore.

Cousins house

My cousins family is very fun. They are fun to talk to and force feed me so much. Raining so much today had nuthin to do. They forced me to eat lunch with them, and now i have to eat dinner with them as well...

Very depressed

"There's a lot of other fish in the ocean"...but what if i fell for a shark thats already bitten out a large chunk of me and swam off? =( i dunno what to do...i'm so lost. So much is running through my head. i don't know what i'm supposed to do...i keep talking to myself in my head so much. i don't know who i am anymore...its do this or do that... i don't have a will for anything anymore. Lucky i'm scared of pain, otherwise i would let go of everything which is pretty tempting since it would mean the end of my sadness.

Happy Day

i had a really good day today...i don't think i've been that happy in such a long time. i'm still afraid to keep my hopes up so i won't go bonkers yet. i haven't started my critique yet, but i'll do that very soon. i've finished most of my journal for ICT326 already. i'm still into getting more and more music that will keep my mind positive.

Very Crazy Day

i predict its gonna be a very long day today. i don't have time to relax and i'm just typing into blogger as part of my rest. i had bacon and eggs for brunch, then soon after went out to change the tyres for the ford laser. Now the car doesn't slide as much when i'm goin around a round-about. i dropped off the ragnarok client at Ben's house and was gonna drop of the movies at Daniel's house but nobody was at home. Decided to come to uni to get organised and start my uni work. Was supposed to go clubbin with my cuz tonight but lucky that got cancelled coz i just realised i have to do a 1200 word journal for a topic due on tuesday and a 1000 word critique due somewhere next week as well. i'm in the library at uni now, but can't get into the writing mood. At least i have my units organised so i know how to study for them and i now know what is going on. Its gonna be a really long night tonight. Now to catch up on my readings. =/

Tetris and music

i'm currently back into playing long hours of tetris again. i don't know if its because i want to do something other than uni or if its because my high score was beaten. i think its mainly because i want to keep my mind off other things that can really upset me. To keep my mind away from sadness i've changed my music list to extreme rock, heavy metal, punk and gothic. It seems to be working so far. Some of these songs are really good. Some are also really crazy. i better start my uni work after i beat the high score.

Confused and hurt

i dunno why...i had my first class. i'm back at home now. i tried to concentrate as much as i could. i think it went alright. i know that i shouldn't hope too much. Whenever i have hope i always get torn down. i end up feeling like crap. i really have to try and concentrate more on my uni studies and nothing else. Otherwise i don't think i can make it till the end of the year.

Back at uni

First day back at uni for the semester. i wonder how it will go? i got class in 15 minutes. There's hardly anyone at uni. There's a few butterflys in my stomach... whenever its the first day of something, whether it be school or uni it always happens. i hope my day ends up good

Poetry

What is life? A frenzy,
What is life? An illusion,
a shadow, a fiction.
And the greatest good
is of slight worth,
since life is but a dream,
and dreams are only dreams.
- Pedro Calderón de la Barca

i like this poem... it's part of a play where a poor dude was tricked by a king. The king orders everyone to act along as if the poor dude was always a king. The poor dude thinks he's dreaming even though it seems real...Then when the poor dude falls asleep and wakes up, hes back to being poor again.. and he's thinking that it was a dream and felt that he lost reality twice. He doesn't even know if he is still in a dream. The poem explores the perspectives or the poor dude from when he was a pretend king and when he was poor. Rich or poor, the dude experienced disadvantages. Both sides have advantages and disadvantages and obviously everyone would always not want the disadvantages in life. The poor dude realised this...everybody would always feel up and down no matter what or where they get...Life is just full of dreams which are a combination of wants and fantasies and thats what the reality of life really is. Darn...i'm gettin really philosophical.

Movies and Work

i've been spending too much time watching movies these past few days. i've seen Elektra, Sahara, XXX2, Unleashed, Madagascar, Mr and Mrs Smith and Sin City. They were all good... i get easily satisfied. Jonny wants me to make a website for his IT club. Since uni is gonna start next week, he really needs a webby or he might be the only club without one. Crap...i make the crappest web designs in the whole world, but i'll give it a shot. Might be fun, or might be stressful. i've also been doin thinking which is not good. Thinking too much is bad for me. Thinking makes me paranoid, schizo and suicidal. i better start on the webby before i get distracted.

Prep 4 Interview

i'm just getting ready for my interview on Monday... need to print out resume, birth certificate, licence. i drove to osbourne park yesterday to check out where it was. It was hell far away. With my crappy no sense of direction i got lost coming back...Missed a couple of turns to the city and went inside the northbridge tunnel at northbridge and when i came out of the tunnel i was in woop woop land. Missed so many turns and had to return home from where the airport was which is very far away. Drove almost non stop for 2 hours. i drained half the tank of fuel in the car, so i need to get that filled. i really hope i get this job coz i really really need it. Eagles are playing tonight! i hope they win. They're on a pyscho winning streak now.

WiNC3N's 21st

WiNC3N decided to have his 21st at his house where we all had steamboat. It was pretty good food. There were 2 chocolate cakes which were yummy. We listened to Kong and Ben play guitar and we also watched movies, but the movies got boring. Somewhere in between the movies we decided to drink and i think i drank a bit too much...and can't really remember what happened...but i remember it was really cold. i think i had 4 shots of jim bean and 3 shots of tequlia shots with salt and lemon. i wanted to walk home but i think Daniel dropped me home. i must not be tempted to drink in the future...otherwise i might have a headache like the one i'm having now.

Newport Hotel

Newport Hotel is the pub where Nieves had her 21st birthday today. It was kinda fun and interesting... i didn't really know many people but had still had a fun time coz of good friends. Some funny stuff happened. Also some scary stuff. Played pool against a couple of people and i lost badly. Birthday cake was nice and music was good. Jamie and Christy got kinda drunk and were being crazy when i drove them home. After i dropped them off i got into a little car accident.. On south street the car in front of me braked suddenly at a green light. i quickly checked and changed lanes coz i didn't want to hurt the tyres, but i also had to brake hard coz there was a snow cone in the middle of my lane. There was also another snow cone in the middle of the road in front of the car beside me...that probably explains the sudden braking. Anyways, after the car drove around the snow cone, i was gonna do the same, but at that moment i saw a flash of light in the rear view mirror, a long screeching noise and i focused at the rear view mirror and saw a car coming too fast behind me. It happened so fast. i thought crap and blinked my eyes and thought of the girl i had a crush on and there was slight tap from the rear of the car. We drove around and i signalled to a parking lot where we looked for damages but thankfully there were none, not even a dent in either car. i hate the stupid people who put the cones there. The hooligans may think its funny, but people could get hurt bad...i'm just thankful it was a car that tapped me and not a truck, coz i don't think a truck would of stopped just in time.

Going out a lot

i've been pretty busy these couple of days. Had the reunion yesterday, and today went to party with uni friends. i played some Daytona USA 2 and that was fun. i was over at a uni friend's house and there were these cute little puppies. Today we hanged around at a jacuzzi party for quite a while. Many people in swimwear and there was dj with dance music and bbq with hot dogs. Afterwards we went to Northbridge where we played some pool and walked around and later had coffee and chilled out at a coffee place. Tomorrow is a uni friends 21st at a pub somewhere in freo. Hopefully i won't get lost along the way. So tired now....

High School Reunion

We had a Lynwood Senior High reunion dinner just for us boys. Also for Daniel's birthday as well. We had chinese stuff in a chinese restaurant which was pretty ok... Daniel got his present, which was a massive optical illusion poster (pictured). It looks like cogs turning and it would make anyone go crazy if they stare at it for too long. After the dinner we played snooker at LA Cue. i officially suck at snooker. Even if i have a clean direct shot and the white ball, red ball and hole is in one line, my white ball will constantly jump over the red ball and land in the hole. The rules for snooker were pretty interesting though. i wish i was a better player.

Another Day

i think i'm really into developing web stuff. i spent quite a bit of effort on this blog's template design. i've added in links that manipulate what can be seen by the user. Took a few hours to get the concept of it. i can't believe i have this much motivation in web design. This is my second blog place. my first 'blog' was just editing a single html page every time i wanted to make an entry. i decided to make this new one and end the old one coz there's a lot of things that i want to move on and forget about, and it will probably help if i distance myself from all the old stuff.

Crap...

i've spent 7 hours yesterday trying to move the holiday movies from dv tape to the computer. It's taking a long time 'coz i still want to have it in good quality and not fill up the harddrive. On the smallest tape which had about 17 mins of video, i made a avi file which was almost 3 gigabytes. i don't have enough space on the hard drive to make a 60 min tape. =( i guess i'll have to set the format to 768Kbps Broadband NTCS in WMV then. Quality still sucks though. i'm gonna try and manipulate this blog layout a little more.

Success!

i finally got the layout just the way i want it. Sure worth the effort. =D i wonder when i'll get some sleep? Some ppl are still on msn...Crazy

Tired...

i'm so tired now... i spent a few hours trying to edit the style sheets on this blog spot thing. Since i'm only a beginner, i'm doin a lot of trial and errors to get stuff working. i wish i was more smarter than i am now. =(

Testing Hello Picasa program. If anyone knows a bit about it please gimme a yell

Ginji looking at a photo

my first post at blogspot

Woohoo i have a blogspot now. Woopeedoo. =D