At least i know for sure

i can't even remember what day i asked her... it was probably on Tuesday. i was glad we could talk over it properly, but also extremely sad. i couldn't let out any tears, but i was probably all ripped apart inside. A minute after when i left, it started raining. i'm not feeling anything inside me anymore. More like empty. It's been a tough week, i dunno how to get over it. i feel like more than a year has been wasted. Oh well, nothing i can do about it. Ben's birthday party is this Saturday. Haven't seen him in ages or the rest of the other guys.