Chicken Pocks

i've caught chicken pox off my little bro today. i feel terrible. i had a very bad fever last night and today i've got the spots all over my body. My limbs also feel sore. The pain in my shoulder was so bad that i had to take panadol to numb it. It feels likes its been cracked against the wall. With these spots i've officially become the pimple freak from hell. i think i have more spots than a dalmation.

i made it to 21

My birthday bbq went ok. Or ok as i had intented. i expected the weather to be really bad which it turned out to be. i tried to get the venue changed to my house, but i couldn't contact enough people so i had it at heathcote. The weather seemed perfect. Too bad i felt sick like i had to go to the toilet. It was kinda worse that there was a window next to the toilet that had a gap open which would not close. Anyone who was in the carpark could see me chucking one of the worse craps in my life. Well afterwards the rain came. Everybody ran like crazy to the cars. i then had it moved to my house to finish off the food. i was kinda shocked that my parents bought a massive cake. i specifically said, "NO CAKE". Oh well. For the past few days i've been having cake for breakfast. Kinda yummy but not very healthy. Maybe i'll die of a heart attack now i'm 21. i never expected to make it but it looks like i have to live with it now. i still got stuff to do.

Abundance of weener

i've been trying to organise a bbq for my birthday this Sunday. Weather forecast says showers so i'm hoping for divine intervention. Major bummer to have rain when its summer. i blame global warming. Stoopid countries who produce lots of greenhouse gases and even worse the countries that support the countries who makes lots of greenhouse gases. Yeah, you know who i'm talking about. Only 2 countries didn't sign the damn Kyoto protocol. i'm in one of them. Now climate change seems to be making it rain on my 21st birthday. Also most of my friends are male and most of my cousins are male, so its gonna be like a big MALE BBQ with an abundance of weener. Uber bummer. The bbq is gonna look really gay. Literally.

Finished Uni

i've finished my last exam on friday and have officially finished all my uni studies. The exam went ok. i was afraid i didn't write enough notes before the exam but a lot of what i DID write appeared in the exam so it was pretty good for me. i dunno whats it gonna be like now. No more uni. Have to start looking for work then. i wanted to do a manual part time job which would be really cool but my parents won't let me because i would have a uni degree. They want me to start in an office straight away. i can't understand them. They always make it difficult. i've been playing Super Mario and Megaman recently. Platform games are kinda cool coz u can run real fast and shoot bad guys and jump crazy distances. i also have to start planning my birthday bbq too. i thought i would be really depressed after i finish uni but luckily i don't seem to be feeling that way. i'm glad i have contact details of my uni friends. For the past 2 weeks i have been using Mozilla Firefox coz somehow Internet Explorer stopped working. It's pretty cool. Theres tabs which is pretty useful. Yesterday i tried to install the new printer which my dad bought. It literally chewed up every sheet of paper that it tried to roll through. We took it back to the shops and exchanged it for another one. This one worked perfectly. Its an Epson Stylus Photo R210. It can print on cds which is pretty cool. i'm having a bit of trouble installing the ink check software which tells the computer how much ink is left. i would be in the garden today mowing the lawn and digging up weeds. Our garden is filled with flowers which would be good if they weren't all weeds.

November Rain

i know am i'm sensitive so i have to deal with it. i know i get hurt easily so i have to deal with it. i'm still alive and i'd rather know and see what kills me first. So bring it on.

"Sometimes I need some time...on my own
Sometimes I need some time...all alone" -Guns N' Roses

Cool song. It kinda reflects my pain so i don't have to feel it.

ICT325 Exam

i think i did quite well in the exam today. i understood all the questions and wrote heaps on them. i dunno what happened after the exams. It could be the last time that i would see some of my uni friends so i was kinda sad. i really dunno what to do. i thought i could keep being happy, but apparently not. Nobody understands. Bummer, i feel down again. i might as well try a little bit harder. Thats what everyone says. They just don't know how difficult it is i guess. My next exam is next week on Friday. After that i would be walking on the unknown. Lost as ever.

Project Presentations

i went to look at my friends' project presentations yesterday. They were really good. Later we spent the day talking about crap. At the end of all the presentations we all went to the Kardinya tavern coz there was a free bar tab. i only had coke though coz i was driving. It was alright...people talking and laughing and stuff. i played pool with my friends and lost every game. It was kinda sad for me coz it could be the last time hanging around with my uni friends. All the crap we've been through and we're at the end. Its like completing a very good RPG game. Now its like i have to find something else to do. After the tavern i drove Jamie back to uni for him to sober up. We somehow met Sue in the ps labs. Yeh we haven't seen Sue for ages, so i guess its kinda like fate that we should see as much of our uni friends as possible. Ok i have to study for my exam on wednesday and try not to think too much about my personal problems.

Triple Crown

i went to Triple Crown on Friday. It was alright but wasn't really special. Before Triple Crown, i went to Jonny's place where we hanged out for a while. Jonny somehow drank a dozen bottles of beer. We then went to another friend's house down the road where we chilled and watched Britney Spears on DVD. i can't believe that Jonny secretly left for Triple Crown. i guess i can forgive him coz he was really drunk. i was probably the only sober one around at Jonny's friends house. Later i offered to take Kerren and a couple of drunk people to Triple Crown so they wouldn't have to pay for a Taxi. At Triple Crown the place was packed. i met some uni friends talked with them and later i drank a little. i wish i had more tolerance coz i lose myself too easily...Kerren, drunk as ever, pulled me with him onto a small, raised stage packed with people. i was a little out of it and dancing a while when suddenly Kerren fell off the stage. Luckily he was all right. We decided to go to Metros in Freo. i wanted to go coz i never been before. i didn't know where it was so i kinda forced Kerren into my car so he could direct me. It was pretty hard to stop him jumping into bushes and fighting with his friends. i also took a couple of other people with me to Metros. We ate a little at Hungry Jacks across the road from it. Anyways i think Metros was pretty crap that night. The music was really bad. i left the place around 2 and drove home. On Saturday i played Resident Evil 2 on the computer. i forced my lil bro to watch me play it coz i'm too scared to play it alone. Zombies seem to jump out of walls and windows and one way mirrors. i finished the game today. Thinking about goin to uni tomorrow to study...

Stoopid paragraph

i'm supposed to finish a journal by friday, but its really hard to get focused. i've written a paragraph and have been staring at the same paragraph for the last few days. Not good progress. Argghh. i'm goin to the Triple Crown party on Friday. i've always been making excuses not to go on all the previous years, but since this is my final year i feel like i have an obligation to go...i wonder what it's gonna be like? Probably a lot of drunk people...i just finished watchin Spiderman 2 on dvd. It's not bad...i'm gonna try and work on my journal now. i hope nothing distracts me.

Looking out the window

i was looking out the window on a rainy afternoon and noticed a couple of pigeons underneath a shrub taking shelter from the rain. i quickly took a few photos of them together. They look pyscho cute together. It reminded me of what i don't have and what i might never have. i'm really happy for the pigeons but very sad for myself. i wish i can fly away from my life. Ben's birthday party yesterday was alrite. Lots of good food is always good. Lots of his relatives were there. i played pool with Daniel, Adrian and Ben until late in the night. Almost fell asleep at his place. i've had a very rough week. i wanted to sleep and rest today but didn't get a chance. i've been doing too many things for other people and not enough time for myself. i'm losing the chances to take my stress out of my mind.

At least i know for sure

i can't even remember what day i asked her... it was probably on Tuesday. i was glad we could talk over it properly, but also extremely sad. i couldn't let out any tears, but i was probably all ripped apart inside. A minute after when i left, it started raining. i'm not feeling anything inside me anymore. More like empty. It's been a tough week, i dunno how to get over it. i feel like more than a year has been wasted. Oh well, nothing i can do about it. Ben's birthday party is this Saturday. Haven't seen him in ages or the rest of the other guys.

Past memories

i've been thinking a lot about the past during the weekend. Kinda makes me sad that i'm gonna be saying goodbye to uni life soon. i had a lot of fun and made many friends. i'm gonna miss the time i had with friends in ECL labs and then later in PS labs. i might even miss all the late nights i spend in the labs. Its been a place where i could do homework in peace and meditate and reflect on my life. Its also a place where i chilled with many friends as we did uni work. i spent all of yesteday night capturing 2 tapes of holiday video from the dv camera to the computer. Took 3 hours to burn it on dvd. i let the computer auto shut after the burning completes. When i woke up today the computer was switched off, but the dvd burner drive was ejected with the finished dvd. i tested the dvd and the quality on it was very very good. Much more better and clearer than vcd. However it did take some time though. The two videos in the computer took 15 GIGS. The price we pay for quality. i'm at uni at the moment. Spent the past couple of hours organising my bag again. Also printed out lecture notes and readings.

Finished Assignment!

i spent the past week working on my assignment and finally finished it today and uploaded it 10 mins before the deadline. Also i've seem to have caught a really bad cold, but luckily i'm over the worst of it. i am relieved that i have no more critiques to write up. However uni seems to be nearly ending for me so i guess i have to start looking for a job soon. Bummer. i don't know how to feel about everything. i don't know a lot of things... even the things that i think are important for me to know.

Heavy load of homework

At uni again. Been here since 8:30am. Actually not entirely at uni. In the afternoon i went to Garden City with a friend. That was kinda good to get out and relax a bit. But back at uni now and its so boring. i saw a lot of friends today. i guess that's good. Had lunch/dinner with Christy and Jamie at Hungry Jacks. i have to cut back on my junk food intake. Right now i'm a loner at uni. Assignment is coming along fine, but haven't started work on the critiques yet. i was allowed to delay my critique from last week, so now i have two whole critiques to write up. i hope i get at least one critique done tonight. Uber bummer...

Sleeping at uni

i'm in the uni labs again working on assignment. Or at least trying to work on it. Fell asleep a few times whilst listening to music on my zen. i'll probably stay here till around 12. Hopefully i'll get a third of it done. i saw my tutor here a while ago... she said i did well in my previous assignment. i hope she didn't mistake me for another Chris. There's like 2 other Chris's in the same tute. The assignment i'm supposed to be doin now is terribly boring. Bummer. Noone in the labs now. At least i got my zen to fight the quiet mechanical hum of computers and air-cons. i summon punk, rock, jpop, dance, chinese and country music! i'll try not to fall asleep again. Back to uber boring assignment. Have to stay sane.

i think i already know

So...yeh, i think i already know how its gonna turn out...but just don't have the guts to face it..i'll try again tomorrow. Also last thursday my lil bro blew up the computer. He didn't really blow it on purpose, but it died on him. i decided to open it up and have a look. i noticed that a few capacitators were blown or leaking...not good.

Thats the mother board after i removed all the graphics card, modem, firewire, sound and network cards. Below is the obsolete geforce 2 mx 64 mb graphics card:

Here is a pic of the creative sound card:

And our firewire card:

And network card:


And internal modem:


Heres me taking apart the big ass fan/heatsink from the cpu (pentium 4 1.6 ghz):


Pics of the Pentium 4 1.6 Ghz CPU:


So we got a new computer upgrade on the weekend. i picked it up today after uni. Our new computer has the old 40 Gb hard drive as the primary drive, and an extra 120 Gb hard drive as its slave. Also has an additional 512mb ddr RAM over the existing 256 ddr RAM. Has a Intel Celeron 2.8GHz and a new motherboard which has already a network slot and also 6 USB 2.0 ports. We also got a new case and dvd burner for it. The graphics card, firewire and modem has been transferred to the new mother board. When i turn on the computer, everything looks the same, because we used our old hard drive as the primary drive. The only difference is it can now burn dvds and is slightly bigger and faster. i'm kinda happy with it. It helps take my mind off current things that are disturbing me.

have to wait again

Looks like i'll have to wait till tomorrow before i know...another unexpected turn in my life...bummer. i finished my essay at 2:30pm yesterday. i think i did quite good...gonna spend the day writing up a critique. Am at uni now waiting for my sis to do her group work with her group so i can give her a lift back. i wonder how long she'll take? Lucky i got my zen with me. i have so many hours of music to listen to. And it charges through the USB port of a computer. =) It's very convenient.

Feeling lost atm

The unexpected always comes for me. Things never turn out the way i expected even when i thought i planned for everything. Really dunno how to feel. Am so lost as always. Bummer i still have to finish my 3000 essay by 3pm today. Thats a little over 5 hours from now. i wonder if it can make it in time? Its so hard to think right now. Its worth 30% of my final grade. Maybe i should think of how i'll feel after i've finished it. Relieved? Hmmm tempting. Promised myself to not keep my hopes up so i guess i shouldn't...i wonder whats gonna happen tomorrow? i just need to know.

Always more uni work

i presented my seminar yesterday. Talked for about half an hour...got a HD for it!! =) i've just spent over an hour sorting through all the readings and lecture notes and marked submissions in my bag. Took me so long to organise all the paper. But at least i got it done. Now i have to write up my journals which are due tomorrow. i should be able to finish it by today. And then on the weekend i have to do a 3000 word essay. =( It never ends, i'm gonna die doin homework. i hardly see any of my friends anymore. They all seem to have disappeared... maybe its coz they graduated already or are doin different units. Bummer, alone again. What else is new?

Wats wrong with this world?

http://www.komotv.com/stories/38000.htm

All i can say is WAT THE F***
Some people really have nothing better to do...and they get themselves killed in the most amusing way. Animals is bad enough, but what sicko in their right mind would take on a HORSE? What shocked me is that it seems to be legal in Washington State. This is proof that we live in a F***** up world with lots of crazy people. Crazy people die from doing crazy things...or more like Sicko people die from doing sicko things. Moral of the story: Don't be gay and don't take on a horse.