Always more uni work

i presented my seminar yesterday. Talked for about half an hour...got a HD for it!! =) i've just spent over an hour sorting through all the readings and lecture notes and marked submissions in my bag. Took me so long to organise all the paper. But at least i got it done. Now i have to write up my journals which are due tomorrow. i should be able to finish it by today. And then on the weekend i have to do a 3000 word essay. =( It never ends, i'm gonna die doin homework. i hardly see any of my friends anymore. They all seem to have disappeared... maybe its coz they graduated already or are doin different units. Bummer, alone again. What else is new?

Wats wrong with this world?

http://www.komotv.com/stories/38000.htm

All i can say is WAT THE F***
Some people really have nothing better to do...and they get themselves killed in the most amusing way. Animals is bad enough, but what sicko in their right mind would take on a HORSE? What shocked me is that it seems to be legal in Washington State. This is proof that we live in a F***** up world with lots of crazy people. Crazy people die from doing crazy things...or more like Sicko people die from doing sicko things. Moral of the story: Don't be gay and don't take on a horse.

Eagles Lost =(

Bummer. Eagles only lost by 4 points. i hate Sydney...they play so dirty. i'm at uni now doin the critique for the week. Gotta try to focus a little more. i have a lot on my mind. Going to come to uni again tomorrow to start the work for the seminar. Lecturer said it's a hard topic. Bummer again. Still have journals and a 6000 word essay to do. Watched a comedy movie with my cousin on Thursday. It wasn't really that good. i'd prefer a horror even though i'm scared of horror movies. Action movies would be good too. Bummer, i should get back to my massive homework load.

Better now

i'm feeling better now. Or at least better than i was yesterday. i have enough hope to get by, but not so much as i can get crushed again from. i've got other stuff to focus on.. such as my journals, critique, research essay, assignment and a seminar i have to prepare by next week. If i die, i would rather die trying. Pain? i've been through worse.

Torn down

i broke one of the few rules i ever made...never ever to keep my hopes up. Now i feel like i have nothing to live for. i'm really crushed. i need time to think and be alone...i don't want want people barging into this room. LEAVE ME ALONE IDIOTS! Its frigging annoying. i want my privacy...i'm very pissed at the moment. i want to be alone for now. Everybody seems to be disturbing me. i don't want to make it through the week. i can't understand why i was ever born. All i get is misery. There is also uni stuff to worry about. When do i graduate? Why da F*** does everybody ask me that. It has nothing to do with them. Only me. Its really annoying. i have no idea...i have no idea what to do after i graduate. i don't even see myself graduating and finishing uni. No job, no future, no life.

Eagles in Grand Final!

Woopee, i watched the game on TV and it was pretty evenly matched. Crows almost caught up but Eagles managed to kick a couple more goals to stay safe. One of the best games i've seen. They better win the grand final. i've also just finished watching FF7 advent children. Its really awesome. i want a sword like Cloud's. Can be split up into serveral swords or attached together as one. Awesome stuff. Yuffie and Tifa also look extremly attractive...damn animation is getting so realistic now. Fight scenes were extremly entertaining. Makes the Matrix's fight scenes seem extremly dull. Also motorbike chases are so extreme, that the fighters fight on and off their bikes at high speed with melee and ranged weapons. FF7 had one of the greatest story lines ever, and its pretty cool that they use the story to make a movie out of it. Thinking about going to uni tomorrow to write up my critiques and journals. i don't want to get too lazy. i'm also feeling a bit unwell. Maybe i ate too much chicken cacciatore.

Very Confused

i finally finished my assignment and have already uploaded it. i'm gonna relax today and spend the weekend working on the critiques for the week. i asked her out again on wednesday but she says she was busy...i was really down but didn't have much time to dwell on it coz of the assignment. i was really happy when she asked if i wanted to watch a movie with her after the assignment. That was just the day after. It probably didn't mean anything for her though. Honestly girls are very confusing sometimes. i'll probably get torn down into pieces in the end, but i only live once and i still want to try even though i'm expecting to be really hurt later on. i really don't want to keep my hopes up. Thats just suicidal. Hmm so much homework to do. i have to prepare a seminar, start the 3000 word essay, and finish my journals and critiques. Bummer.

Very Happy

i was so happy yesterday...my parents bought me a zen! i promise that i will do anything they say for the next 5 years or until i pay them back. i'm at uni right now listening to it and also writing up my critique for the week. i'll finish in the next 2 hours then i can start on my ICT325 assignment. Also our new neighbours who recently moved in gave us some home cooked muffins. They must be really nice. i can't believe that i have zen that will give me music whenever i need it. Thats already one of my four goals that i have in my life. The remaining three are: a job, a car and a girl.

If i kill myself...

If i do kill myself, i want people to know that for me to kill myself, i would of have to been very sad. So people should take comfort in knowing that i wouldn't be sad anymore if i am gone, whether i disappear completely or if i am in heaven or hell. If i kill myself its because i can't live on with my life anymore so i would probably be doing the right thing to leave and just disappear. Therefore i don't want people to be sad, disappointed or angry that i am gone because they should know that i won't be sad anymore. i also would prefer to be cremated because that would save space. i don't care what happens with my ashes. i'm not gonna kill myself yet, so anybody reading this should not be worried. i'm just writing down my thoughts as they come.

At uni again

Here i am doin essays and stuff at uni. i'm gonna try and get my work done before midnight tonight. Have to write up a 1000 word critique and an outline for a 3000 word essay. i just can't work from home. There's too many distractions. At uni here now and i am the only one in these labs...its so quiet here. All i can hear is the sound of my fingers hitting the keyboard, the quiet humming of the computers and the air conditioning unit. All the computers except this one has a black screen because they're in stand by mode. Kinda peaceful...lonely, but peaceful. i should be able to do my work here.

Google for thought

i think Google is such a successful company. Its not just because its become filthy rich, but because we (or at least i) seem to be using a lot of its services. For example, when we first got the internet, i set google as the homepage because it was nice, clean, simple and took the least amount of time to load up the page. Whenever i wanted to look up something on the net, whether it be music lyrics or code, google was always there to help me. And google also made Gmail. i like gmail a lot because it handles spam very nicely. And also because it holds over a whopping 2GB of email space. Its also loads faster because there isn't any picture ads. i hardly used my old email. Its filled up with hundreds of spam. i would of liked to turn on the function that only enables emails from people within my addressbook, but if i turned that on, i won't be able to recieve any email from my uni. Google also owns blogger, which is pretty cool because i can now experiment a bit with xml stuff and also write down random ramblings and read what other people is rambling on about. Recently i've played with google earth which is fun to use and see places from around the globe. i think its only a matter of time before google takes over the world. i really hope google isn't evil.