Interview!!

i just called and now i have an interview in the city at 2:30 pm. Quick check at Multimap.com and reference of latitude and longitude to google earth and now i have a satellite pic and road names to the building. And OMG it's a freaking tall building. i have to prepare for interview and OMG i dunno how to tie a tie!!! i'm doooomed =(

Good things

Last last weekend my grandpa wanted to get his newly bought computer fixed. The computer had a blank screen stayed there for about 3 and a half minutes BEFORE windows began to load. So i checked out the computer and couldn't find out what was causing the mess. i did find that the graphics card didn't match the graphics card on the invoice (it was an older version) and there was a dead pixel on the lcd monitor. So on Saturday i took it down to where we bought it from (AUSTIN) and wanted them to fix it. However, they pissed me off bad by saying that they couldn't replace the monitor even though it said that all hardware parts had a 12 month warranty. They began to say stuff like the manufacturer produces different warranties and that we had to report it in 7 days to get a refund for the monitor. i did point out that they never wrote this down or never told us verbally. Anyways, when i told them about the graphics card they said that the guy for warranties isn't here till monday. So why did we just spend the past 20 mins arguing with this person??? So on monday we took it down and asked for a complete refund on EVERYTHING. They gave us the same treatment saying that they will have a look at it, and can't do anything about the monitor. However a quick mention of a complaint to consumer affairs and he changed his mind and allowed us to have a refund back in cash. i don't understand why things have to be so complicated. i recently heard from RSPCA telling us that the stray cat has been health checked, vaccinated and given a new home. Thats kinda good. It wasn't put down and it won't be lonely ever again. Yesterday i got a call from Kmart regarding the nightfill job. They wanted me to start training straight away. i also got a call for an interview for a helpdesk job but had to delay that interview because of the Kmart training. i'm gonna call about the interview in about 15 mins. Hopefully i get the job. The Kmart training yesterday was alright. Now i get some $$$, i also have to tell centrelink and check bank statements...Argghh so much to do today.

Feeling very annoyed

i hate it when people try to keep things to themselves especially when it doesn't concern them and when i need the information much more than they do. This person probably thinks its cool that he has 'exclusive' access to my work. It pisses me a lot and i feel like bashing the crap out of him, even though i am a pacifist. Maybe it's because i'm having a bad week. No, i think i deserve to beat the crap out of him. I spent a lot of time and effort making some webpages, coding and documentation and now he has access to them and i don't. i've got too much to do at the moment. People are taking advantage of me. i have to learn to say no. It doesn't pay to be nice. Nice people never win.

Stray Cat

i don't know if this week has been the best or the worst time in my life. During the days i guess i am having a really happy time. i don't know if i should be so happy. It's a fantasy i guess. i'm spending a lot of time with someone i like even though i shouldn't like her as more than a friend. i think there is a movie like that called Just Friends, but i'm not gonna watch it. At night, my nightmares are getting worse. i know how they happen. They result from the very very little things that are said or done during the day. Little things that shouldn't bother anyone but affects me heaps. Anyways, on the weekend a stray cat came to our house. It was very hungry and quite young and wouldn't stop meowing so we decided to feed it a bit. We couldn't call RSPCA coz they didn't operate on weekends. We fed it as much as we can and played with it a bit during its stay. We handed over the cat to them today. Hopefully they'll find it an owner that will take care of it well.
Hopefully it won't get put down. Life's not fair.

New vacuum cleaner

i've had a very very long 2 weeks. A lot of stuff happened; most of it bad. So bad in fact that i would rather forget it so i won't be typing it down. We do have a new vacuum cleaner now. Cost about 1000 bucks but it looks really cool. Externally is looks really modern, with the body resembling a black stealth fighter. It's telescopic pipe resembles a shot gun. i'm not joking. But it does seem to be a well designed vacuum cleaner and is much quieter than our last one. It's also more compact and lighter. It has an on board compartment which holds 3 different heads. We had to get a new vacuum cleaner because the old one stopped working. i think we had it for over 18 years already.

Whales revenge

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Is it fate i'll be alone forever?

i don't know if i should believe that my life is already destined. Right now it sucks really bad and i would be really disappointed if the reason i'm sad and alone is due to fate or destiny. i was looking up some stuff on hanging and it seems that a 60 kg person requires about 3 to 4 metres of drop for a compelte break. A lot of the stuff scared me because it laid out everything to expect. Especially that instant death was not certain and that it would involve suffocation and breakage of neck bones. As i was thinking through it all, i got a call for an interview for work. Smells like hope, but i know better. Hope hurts a lot. Whatever comes to me tomorrow, i'll just accept it without expecting too much.

i need sleep

It's almost 3 am and i'm still not asleep yet. i keep thinking sad thoughts and am afraid of what i might do. Nobody to talk to now. Part of me wants to continue thinking sad thoughts over and over so it would be easier for me. The other part of me is just a mess that can't think anymore. Its horrible. Is this stress or depression? i'm stressed coz i'm always depressed and i'm depressed coz i'm always stressed. My life sucks.

Chinese New Year

Well actually Chinese New Year was yesterday. The big feast was the day before. i dunno what to feel about everything. i can still find a bit of happiness but its slowly going away. Even little things make me sad. How can i keep living like this? Is it gonna keep being like this in the future?

Whats wrong with suicide?

i have nothing against suicide as long as its done by adults. Sure, some people wouldn't like it but what if it puts the person out of his misery? Isn't that better than getting him to live a life of sadness? Some people say its selfish, and it would only hurt himself and other people, especially family and friends, but i think in the long run it would be the individual who would be hurting the most. When nobody understands how he feels, or he's tired of pretending to be ok all the time it would be a slow painful torture. Thats why he would choose to kill himself for. i think it would be best to be sad for a short amount of time than to live a long life of sadness and hurt.

New year

The start of a new year for me...no more uni. To be honest i'm not doing that great. Gotta sort myself out. My chicken pox are over so i don't look like a human picnic bar anymore. i'm still in search for happiness...can't seem to find any at the moment though. i've been thinking way too much which is kinda bad. i'm also looking for options. Its not an easy time for me at the moment. Hopefully i'll get by.

Chicken Pocks

i've caught chicken pox off my little bro today. i feel terrible. i had a very bad fever last night and today i've got the spots all over my body. My limbs also feel sore. The pain in my shoulder was so bad that i had to take panadol to numb it. It feels likes its been cracked against the wall. With these spots i've officially become the pimple freak from hell. i think i have more spots than a dalmation.

i made it to 21

My birthday bbq went ok. Or ok as i had intented. i expected the weather to be really bad which it turned out to be. i tried to get the venue changed to my house, but i couldn't contact enough people so i had it at heathcote. The weather seemed perfect. Too bad i felt sick like i had to go to the toilet. It was kinda worse that there was a window next to the toilet that had a gap open which would not close. Anyone who was in the carpark could see me chucking one of the worse craps in my life. Well afterwards the rain came. Everybody ran like crazy to the cars. i then had it moved to my house to finish off the food. i was kinda shocked that my parents bought a massive cake. i specifically said, "NO CAKE". Oh well. For the past few days i've been having cake for breakfast. Kinda yummy but not very healthy. Maybe i'll die of a heart attack now i'm 21. i never expected to make it but it looks like i have to live with it now. i still got stuff to do.

Abundance of weener

i've been trying to organise a bbq for my birthday this Sunday. Weather forecast says showers so i'm hoping for divine intervention. Major bummer to have rain when its summer. i blame global warming. Stoopid countries who produce lots of greenhouse gases and even worse the countries that support the countries who makes lots of greenhouse gases. Yeah, you know who i'm talking about. Only 2 countries didn't sign the damn Kyoto protocol. i'm in one of them. Now climate change seems to be making it rain on my 21st birthday. Also most of my friends are male and most of my cousins are male, so its gonna be like a big MALE BBQ with an abundance of weener. Uber bummer. The bbq is gonna look really gay. Literally.

Finished Uni

i've finished my last exam on friday and have officially finished all my uni studies. The exam went ok. i was afraid i didn't write enough notes before the exam but a lot of what i DID write appeared in the exam so it was pretty good for me. i dunno whats it gonna be like now. No more uni. Have to start looking for work then. i wanted to do a manual part time job which would be really cool but my parents won't let me because i would have a uni degree. They want me to start in an office straight away. i can't understand them. They always make it difficult. i've been playing Super Mario and Megaman recently. Platform games are kinda cool coz u can run real fast and shoot bad guys and jump crazy distances. i also have to start planning my birthday bbq too. i thought i would be really depressed after i finish uni but luckily i don't seem to be feeling that way. i'm glad i have contact details of my uni friends. For the past 2 weeks i have been using Mozilla Firefox coz somehow Internet Explorer stopped working. It's pretty cool. Theres tabs which is pretty useful. Yesterday i tried to install the new printer which my dad bought. It literally chewed up every sheet of paper that it tried to roll through. We took it back to the shops and exchanged it for another one. This one worked perfectly. Its an Epson Stylus Photo R210. It can print on cds which is pretty cool. i'm having a bit of trouble installing the ink check software which tells the computer how much ink is left. i would be in the garden today mowing the lawn and digging up weeds. Our garden is filled with flowers which would be good if they weren't all weeds.

November Rain

i know am i'm sensitive so i have to deal with it. i know i get hurt easily so i have to deal with it. i'm still alive and i'd rather know and see what kills me first. So bring it on.

"Sometimes I need some time...on my own
Sometimes I need some time...all alone" -Guns N' Roses

Cool song. It kinda reflects my pain so i don't have to feel it.

ICT325 Exam

i think i did quite well in the exam today. i understood all the questions and wrote heaps on them. i dunno what happened after the exams. It could be the last time that i would see some of my uni friends so i was kinda sad. i really dunno what to do. i thought i could keep being happy, but apparently not. Nobody understands. Bummer, i feel down again. i might as well try a little bit harder. Thats what everyone says. They just don't know how difficult it is i guess. My next exam is next week on Friday. After that i would be walking on the unknown. Lost as ever.

Project Presentations

i went to look at my friends' project presentations yesterday. They were really good. Later we spent the day talking about crap. At the end of all the presentations we all went to the Kardinya tavern coz there was a free bar tab. i only had coke though coz i was driving. It was alright...people talking and laughing and stuff. i played pool with my friends and lost every game. It was kinda sad for me coz it could be the last time hanging around with my uni friends. All the crap we've been through and we're at the end. Its like completing a very good RPG game. Now its like i have to find something else to do. After the tavern i drove Jamie back to uni for him to sober up. We somehow met Sue in the ps labs. Yeh we haven't seen Sue for ages, so i guess its kinda like fate that we should see as much of our uni friends as possible. Ok i have to study for my exam on wednesday and try not to think too much about my personal problems.

Triple Crown

i went to Triple Crown on Friday. It was alright but wasn't really special. Before Triple Crown, i went to Jonny's place where we hanged out for a while. Jonny somehow drank a dozen bottles of beer. We then went to another friend's house down the road where we chilled and watched Britney Spears on DVD. i can't believe that Jonny secretly left for Triple Crown. i guess i can forgive him coz he was really drunk. i was probably the only sober one around at Jonny's friends house. Later i offered to take Kerren and a couple of drunk people to Triple Crown so they wouldn't have to pay for a Taxi. At Triple Crown the place was packed. i met some uni friends talked with them and later i drank a little. i wish i had more tolerance coz i lose myself too easily...Kerren, drunk as ever, pulled me with him onto a small, raised stage packed with people. i was a little out of it and dancing a while when suddenly Kerren fell off the stage. Luckily he was all right. We decided to go to Metros in Freo. i wanted to go coz i never been before. i didn't know where it was so i kinda forced Kerren into my car so he could direct me. It was pretty hard to stop him jumping into bushes and fighting with his friends. i also took a couple of other people with me to Metros. We ate a little at Hungry Jacks across the road from it. Anyways i think Metros was pretty crap that night. The music was really bad. i left the place around 2 and drove home. On Saturday i played Resident Evil 2 on the computer. i forced my lil bro to watch me play it coz i'm too scared to play it alone. Zombies seem to jump out of walls and windows and one way mirrors. i finished the game today. Thinking about goin to uni tomorrow to study...

Stoopid paragraph

i'm supposed to finish a journal by friday, but its really hard to get focused. i've written a paragraph and have been staring at the same paragraph for the last few days. Not good progress. Argghh. i'm goin to the Triple Crown party on Friday. i've always been making excuses not to go on all the previous years, but since this is my final year i feel like i have an obligation to go...i wonder what it's gonna be like? Probably a lot of drunk people...i just finished watchin Spiderman 2 on dvd. It's not bad...i'm gonna try and work on my journal now. i hope nothing distracts me.