Is it fate i'll be alone forever?

i don't know if i should believe that my life is already destined. Right now it sucks really bad and i would be really disappointed if the reason i'm sad and alone is due to fate or destiny. i was looking up some stuff on hanging and it seems that a 60 kg person requires about 3 to 4 metres of drop for a compelte break. A lot of the stuff scared me because it laid out everything to expect. Especially that instant death was not certain and that it would involve suffocation and breakage of neck bones. As i was thinking through it all, i got a call for an interview for work. Smells like hope, but i know better. Hope hurts a lot. Whatever comes to me tomorrow, i'll just accept it without expecting too much.