Meet Wiffle

Ok, so i got hooked on an item called Eggflips. Maybe its their spikey hair, or their plumplish figure, or maybe its their humongous eyes. Whatever it was, it had a very high cuteness factor. Theres about 25 different eggflips. When u buy one u don't know what u will get because u have to turn it inside out literally to make it like that cute little thing u see in this pic. Otherwise it just looks like a plain single color egg shape thing. Supposedly there is only 5 golden eggflips and if u get that one u instantly win 1000 bucks. There's also larger ones but they are already flipped out and you can't win 1000 bucks from them and they only come in 4 patterns. Also they all come scented. =) Anyways the eggflip i got is Wiffle! He's in the Ultra Rare category. Not as rare as the golden one but in the second rarest category then. Lucky i didn't get the pink one. i'm happy with Wiffle's pattern. It matches the colour of the car.

Music reflections

final fantasy 8 - eyes on me. Long bus rides to Murdoch uni, Rockingham campus. 2002.
Neon Genesis Evangelion - Come Sweet Death. Reading Ranma comics. November 2002.
Rikki - Suteki dane. Working at Palm tree cafe. 2003.
Otoha - Ichibyo no refrain. Bus rides to uni, murdoch campus. 2nd semester 2003
Fiction Junction featuring YUUKA - Akatsuki no Kuruma(Dawn's Carriage). Doing Oracle pracs on weekends at uni. 1st semster 2004

These are some of songs that got stuck in my head through my uni years. All of them were heard during times where it was very silent and i was alone and bored out of my mind. When i hear them, it always reminds me of the real boring quiet times i had. However in 2005, while doing the project in first semester i started listening to more radio music and in 2nd semester started listening to songs my friends listened to which included AFI, Rise Against, Offsring, and others. Nowadays i guess i'm listening to radio music again.

Sad. and funny =)

Paperweight explodes. Poor dude.

Have decided

Have decided to tell my grandpa that its all fixed. It may be a bit
selfish but i weighed the pros and cons. He has to know that i can't
always drop everything to help him. i need time at this stage of my
life to start looking for work and making a career. If the computer
has the net cut off, all he has to do is reboot and try again. i have
to think of myself a bit more and stand up for my own decisions which
i think is right. This allows me to be responsible for my integrity
on doing things of my own accord instead of other people telling me to
do things. i can't always be passive all the time or people will start
taking advantage of me. Anyways i don't like the way my grandpa acts
sometimes. He sometimes scolds unreasonably at my grandma and
sometimes swears as in "F%&* @#%" to my cousins who live with him in
front of my face. i know that i should respect my elders but sadly
sometimes that can't happen. My parents tell me to do what he says
all the time or "he might talk bad about me behind my back". i
personally don't care what bad stuff people say behind my back because
thats all they can do. The people who are stupid enough to believe
gossip deserve to be stupid and deserve to fear what other people can
gossip about themselves. Gonna be MY day today.

Need my own time

i got some stuffs to do but my grandpa wants his comp fixed perfectly.
i dunno how its working now. Shop said that it works fine now, but
i'm not so sure. It sometimes says that it is not connected to the
wireless network and still the internet works. Sometimes it does
disconnect. i got my grandpa using the comp that is connected
wirelessly to the router. He's reading some chinese newspapers online.
i thought he knew how to use a comp but it seems like i was wrong.
He told me to do the search for him. i wonder how he uses the net?!?
Probably gets my cousins who live with him to search for him. He just
reads and clicks on any chinese hyperlink. Things that popup, he
pushes OK to get rid of them. i dunno how to tell him that its bad to
do that all the time. Some webpages put hyperlinks on images that look
like windows popups and he can't tell the difference. i dunno if i
should take it back to the shop or pretend that its all working ok. i
need time of my own. Gotta look for jobs and gotta work tonight. i
can't always drop everything just to help him and i don't want him
bugging me all the time. Dilemma.

Wireless connection

Been pretty busy lately. Trying to get my grandpa's comp working
wirelessly with another comp that has a wireless card then gave up on
that. We bought a new wireless router and tried to get it working
with that. It kinda works. The Internet works even though sometimes
it shouldn't be. =S And sometimes it does disconnect so i dunno. Its
getting fixed at the shop today. Dunno when they're gonna be done with
it. i got 3 days a week a Kmart now. Extra $$$ is good. i've been
doing a lot of cleaning lately. Cleaned my room, cleaned my email
inbox and cleaned the car. Busy as always.

i finally let go!!!

I just want you to know
That I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through
And then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe
That there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say
I would do it all again
Just want you to know - Backstreet Boys

i'm glad its not like that anymore. i feel better and i know better.
i finally have let go of the girl i liked for about 2 years. The hurt
was unbearable and i probably would not do it all again. i felt
like i WAS fighting to let her go and i am glad i finally have. It
didn't come that hard. It was just a little shock to find out the
pain wasn't worth it.

i graduate today!

i guess today is an important phase in my life where i finish my
formal educational studies and begin working. Had a bit of stuff to
do today. Yesterday i helped my grandpa buy a computer system, but
the pci wireless card seemed to be faulty. So today we sent it back
for repairs. They said they'll be ready in a few hours so i'm just
waiting for the call from them. Then about 6 i leave the house and go
to the ceremony and hopefully it all goes well from there. i'm only a
little stressed atm. i spent last night chatting with Safina.
Haven't really played much in ages. Did i get bored? Or was i too
busy? Or both? Hmmm. Dunno what to do atm.

Blogging by email

This is a test to see if i can blog using my email. Subject line is
the title post and the email is the post itself. It would be so cool
if this works. It means i don't have to sign into blogger to actually
post onto the blog. If this turns up then it works. =) i hope i did
ok in the interview. They did seem friendly and were doing their best
to keep me relaxed. Took me 30 mins to put on a tie. i got help from
the net. i'm so glad that i don't have to wear a tie if i get the
job. Got a few things to do today.

Interview!!

i just called and now i have an interview in the city at 2:30 pm. Quick check at Multimap.com and reference of latitude and longitude to google earth and now i have a satellite pic and road names to the building. And OMG it's a freaking tall building. i have to prepare for interview and OMG i dunno how to tie a tie!!! i'm doooomed =(

Good things

Last last weekend my grandpa wanted to get his newly bought computer fixed. The computer had a blank screen stayed there for about 3 and a half minutes BEFORE windows began to load. So i checked out the computer and couldn't find out what was causing the mess. i did find that the graphics card didn't match the graphics card on the invoice (it was an older version) and there was a dead pixel on the lcd monitor. So on Saturday i took it down to where we bought it from (AUSTIN) and wanted them to fix it. However, they pissed me off bad by saying that they couldn't replace the monitor even though it said that all hardware parts had a 12 month warranty. They began to say stuff like the manufacturer produces different warranties and that we had to report it in 7 days to get a refund for the monitor. i did point out that they never wrote this down or never told us verbally. Anyways, when i told them about the graphics card they said that the guy for warranties isn't here till monday. So why did we just spend the past 20 mins arguing with this person??? So on monday we took it down and asked for a complete refund on EVERYTHING. They gave us the same treatment saying that they will have a look at it, and can't do anything about the monitor. However a quick mention of a complaint to consumer affairs and he changed his mind and allowed us to have a refund back in cash. i don't understand why things have to be so complicated. i recently heard from RSPCA telling us that the stray cat has been health checked, vaccinated and given a new home. Thats kinda good. It wasn't put down and it won't be lonely ever again. Yesterday i got a call from Kmart regarding the nightfill job. They wanted me to start training straight away. i also got a call for an interview for a helpdesk job but had to delay that interview because of the Kmart training. i'm gonna call about the interview in about 15 mins. Hopefully i get the job. The Kmart training yesterday was alright. Now i get some $$$, i also have to tell centrelink and check bank statements...Argghh so much to do today.

Feeling very annoyed

i hate it when people try to keep things to themselves especially when it doesn't concern them and when i need the information much more than they do. This person probably thinks its cool that he has 'exclusive' access to my work. It pisses me a lot and i feel like bashing the crap out of him, even though i am a pacifist. Maybe it's because i'm having a bad week. No, i think i deserve to beat the crap out of him. I spent a lot of time and effort making some webpages, coding and documentation and now he has access to them and i don't. i've got too much to do at the moment. People are taking advantage of me. i have to learn to say no. It doesn't pay to be nice. Nice people never win.

Stray Cat

i don't know if this week has been the best or the worst time in my life. During the days i guess i am having a really happy time. i don't know if i should be so happy. It's a fantasy i guess. i'm spending a lot of time with someone i like even though i shouldn't like her as more than a friend. i think there is a movie like that called Just Friends, but i'm not gonna watch it. At night, my nightmares are getting worse. i know how they happen. They result from the very very little things that are said or done during the day. Little things that shouldn't bother anyone but affects me heaps. Anyways, on the weekend a stray cat came to our house. It was very hungry and quite young and wouldn't stop meowing so we decided to feed it a bit. We couldn't call RSPCA coz they didn't operate on weekends. We fed it as much as we can and played with it a bit during its stay. We handed over the cat to them today. Hopefully they'll find it an owner that will take care of it well.
Hopefully it won't get put down. Life's not fair.

New vacuum cleaner

i've had a very very long 2 weeks. A lot of stuff happened; most of it bad. So bad in fact that i would rather forget it so i won't be typing it down. We do have a new vacuum cleaner now. Cost about 1000 bucks but it looks really cool. Externally is looks really modern, with the body resembling a black stealth fighter. It's telescopic pipe resembles a shot gun. i'm not joking. But it does seem to be a well designed vacuum cleaner and is much quieter than our last one. It's also more compact and lighter. It has an on board compartment which holds 3 different heads. We had to get a new vacuum cleaner because the old one stopped working. i think we had it for over 18 years already.

Whales revenge

Play the game
Sign the petition

at

http://www.whalesrevenge.com/

Hopefully get 1 million signatures

Is it fate i'll be alone forever?

i don't know if i should believe that my life is already destined. Right now it sucks really bad and i would be really disappointed if the reason i'm sad and alone is due to fate or destiny. i was looking up some stuff on hanging and it seems that a 60 kg person requires about 3 to 4 metres of drop for a compelte break. A lot of the stuff scared me because it laid out everything to expect. Especially that instant death was not certain and that it would involve suffocation and breakage of neck bones. As i was thinking through it all, i got a call for an interview for work. Smells like hope, but i know better. Hope hurts a lot. Whatever comes to me tomorrow, i'll just accept it without expecting too much.

i need sleep

It's almost 3 am and i'm still not asleep yet. i keep thinking sad thoughts and am afraid of what i might do. Nobody to talk to now. Part of me wants to continue thinking sad thoughts over and over so it would be easier for me. The other part of me is just a mess that can't think anymore. Its horrible. Is this stress or depression? i'm stressed coz i'm always depressed and i'm depressed coz i'm always stressed. My life sucks.

Chinese New Year

Well actually Chinese New Year was yesterday. The big feast was the day before. i dunno what to feel about everything. i can still find a bit of happiness but its slowly going away. Even little things make me sad. How can i keep living like this? Is it gonna keep being like this in the future?

Whats wrong with suicide?

i have nothing against suicide as long as its done by adults. Sure, some people wouldn't like it but what if it puts the person out of his misery? Isn't that better than getting him to live a life of sadness? Some people say its selfish, and it would only hurt himself and other people, especially family and friends, but i think in the long run it would be the individual who would be hurting the most. When nobody understands how he feels, or he's tired of pretending to be ok all the time it would be a slow painful torture. Thats why he would choose to kill himself for. i think it would be best to be sad for a short amount of time than to live a long life of sadness and hurt.

New year

The start of a new year for me...no more uni. To be honest i'm not doing that great. Gotta sort myself out. My chicken pox are over so i don't look like a human picnic bar anymore. i'm still in search for happiness...can't seem to find any at the moment though. i've been thinking way too much which is kinda bad. i'm also looking for options. Its not an easy time for me at the moment. Hopefully i'll get by.