Looking out the window

i was looking out the window on a rainy afternoon and noticed a couple of pigeons underneath a shrub taking shelter from the rain. i quickly took a few photos of them together. They look pyscho cute together. It reminded me of what i don't have and what i might never have. i'm really happy for the pigeons but very sad for myself. i wish i can fly away from my life. Ben's birthday party yesterday was alrite. Lots of good food is always good. Lots of his relatives were there. i played pool with Daniel, Adrian and Ben until late in the night. Almost fell asleep at his place. i've had a very rough week. i wanted to sleep and rest today but didn't get a chance. i've been doing too many things for other people and not enough time for myself. i'm losing the chances to take my stress out of my mind.

At least i know for sure

i can't even remember what day i asked her... it was probably on Tuesday. i was glad we could talk over it properly, but also extremely sad. i couldn't let out any tears, but i was probably all ripped apart inside. A minute after when i left, it started raining. i'm not feeling anything inside me anymore. More like empty. It's been a tough week, i dunno how to get over it. i feel like more than a year has been wasted. Oh well, nothing i can do about it. Ben's birthday party is this Saturday. Haven't seen him in ages or the rest of the other guys.

Past memories

i've been thinking a lot about the past during the weekend. Kinda makes me sad that i'm gonna be saying goodbye to uni life soon. i had a lot of fun and made many friends. i'm gonna miss the time i had with friends in ECL labs and then later in PS labs. i might even miss all the late nights i spend in the labs. Its been a place where i could do homework in peace and meditate and reflect on my life. Its also a place where i chilled with many friends as we did uni work. i spent all of yesteday night capturing 2 tapes of holiday video from the dv camera to the computer. Took 3 hours to burn it on dvd. i let the computer auto shut after the burning completes. When i woke up today the computer was switched off, but the dvd burner drive was ejected with the finished dvd. i tested the dvd and the quality on it was very very good. Much more better and clearer than vcd. However it did take some time though. The two videos in the computer took 15 GIGS. The price we pay for quality. i'm at uni at the moment. Spent the past couple of hours organising my bag again. Also printed out lecture notes and readings.

Finished Assignment!

i spent the past week working on my assignment and finally finished it today and uploaded it 10 mins before the deadline. Also i've seem to have caught a really bad cold, but luckily i'm over the worst of it. i am relieved that i have no more critiques to write up. However uni seems to be nearly ending for me so i guess i have to start looking for a job soon. Bummer. i don't know how to feel about everything. i don't know a lot of things... even the things that i think are important for me to know.

Heavy load of homework

At uni again. Been here since 8:30am. Actually not entirely at uni. In the afternoon i went to Garden City with a friend. That was kinda good to get out and relax a bit. But back at uni now and its so boring. i saw a lot of friends today. i guess that's good. Had lunch/dinner with Christy and Jamie at Hungry Jacks. i have to cut back on my junk food intake. Right now i'm a loner at uni. Assignment is coming along fine, but haven't started work on the critiques yet. i was allowed to delay my critique from last week, so now i have two whole critiques to write up. i hope i get at least one critique done tonight. Uber bummer...

Sleeping at uni

i'm in the uni labs again working on assignment. Or at least trying to work on it. Fell asleep a few times whilst listening to music on my zen. i'll probably stay here till around 12. Hopefully i'll get a third of it done. i saw my tutor here a while ago... she said i did well in my previous assignment. i hope she didn't mistake me for another Chris. There's like 2 other Chris's in the same tute. The assignment i'm supposed to be doin now is terribly boring. Bummer. Noone in the labs now. At least i got my zen to fight the quiet mechanical hum of computers and air-cons. i summon punk, rock, jpop, dance, chinese and country music! i'll try not to fall asleep again. Back to uber boring assignment. Have to stay sane.

i think i already know

So...yeh, i think i already know how its gonna turn out...but just don't have the guts to face it..i'll try again tomorrow. Also last thursday my lil bro blew up the computer. He didn't really blow it on purpose, but it died on him. i decided to open it up and have a look. i noticed that a few capacitators were blown or leaking...not good.

Thats the mother board after i removed all the graphics card, modem, firewire, sound and network cards. Below is the obsolete geforce 2 mx 64 mb graphics card:

Here is a pic of the creative sound card:

And our firewire card:

And network card:


And internal modem:


Heres me taking apart the big ass fan/heatsink from the cpu (pentium 4 1.6 ghz):


Pics of the Pentium 4 1.6 Ghz CPU:


So we got a new computer upgrade on the weekend. i picked it up today after uni. Our new computer has the old 40 Gb hard drive as the primary drive, and an extra 120 Gb hard drive as its slave. Also has an additional 512mb ddr RAM over the existing 256 ddr RAM. Has a Intel Celeron 2.8GHz and a new motherboard which has already a network slot and also 6 USB 2.0 ports. We also got a new case and dvd burner for it. The graphics card, firewire and modem has been transferred to the new mother board. When i turn on the computer, everything looks the same, because we used our old hard drive as the primary drive. The only difference is it can now burn dvds and is slightly bigger and faster. i'm kinda happy with it. It helps take my mind off current things that are disturbing me.

have to wait again

Looks like i'll have to wait till tomorrow before i know...another unexpected turn in my life...bummer. i finished my essay at 2:30pm yesterday. i think i did quite good...gonna spend the day writing up a critique. Am at uni now waiting for my sis to do her group work with her group so i can give her a lift back. i wonder how long she'll take? Lucky i got my zen with me. i have so many hours of music to listen to. And it charges through the USB port of a computer. =) It's very convenient.

Feeling lost atm

The unexpected always comes for me. Things never turn out the way i expected even when i thought i planned for everything. Really dunno how to feel. Am so lost as always. Bummer i still have to finish my 3000 essay by 3pm today. Thats a little over 5 hours from now. i wonder if it can make it in time? Its so hard to think right now. Its worth 30% of my final grade. Maybe i should think of how i'll feel after i've finished it. Relieved? Hmmm tempting. Promised myself to not keep my hopes up so i guess i shouldn't...i wonder whats gonna happen tomorrow? i just need to know.