Distracted

Hmm...i was supposed to be doin homework, but i keep getting distracted. i downloaded and installed google earth which shows pics everywhere on earth from orbit. It even shows roof tops from houses. If commercial satellites can do this, i wonder what military satelillites can do? Darn i have to go to uni coz i can't find my uni work, and i'm hoping i saved it onto my uni folder at uni. Otherwise i know its on one of the desktops of the many computers i go on. =( i'm hoping i can find it and get it done by 3:30 pm

No more excuses

Ok...i got so much uni work to do but i have a plan. i'm at uni now on a beautiful fine weekend morning. All i have to do is 500 words (1 page) an hour non stop and i'll be home by 8, just in time for dinner. i hope i can do this. i think my uni friends are having a bbq tomorrow, but i don't think i can come coz i have to start on my assignments tomorrow. i hope they're not too disappointed. If i concentrate fully on my uni work then i don't have to think about other stuff too much...thats the theory. Ok gonna start now.

Extrovert or Introvert?

You Are 20% Extrovert, 80% Introvert

You are quite reserved You aren't afraid of social situations... But you very much prefer to go it alone And why not? You're your own best friend!

Are You An Extrovert or An Introvert?

So much to do

Bummer...i really have to put more effort into my uni work. i have to write a critique (1000 words), 3 journals (1200 words each) and then start on my 2 assignments by next week. i wish i had more time...i guess i shouldn't of wasted it playing pac-man. At least i got my high score back now. Hmm, got so much reading and writing to do. Hopefully i'll finish the critique by tonight.

i am ******* lazy and sad

Ok. i was supposed to hand my critique in on Wednesday afternoon, but i haven't. In fact i haven't even started it yet. i know i have a good idea on what to write it on but i just can't do it. i don't think that its just because "the first step is the hardest"...the cold hard honest truth is: i am ******* lazy. i would rather eat corn chips dipped in salsa and lots of bread with lots of margarine. i then think i need more exercise than study...i remember i could do 50 push ups and 100 sit ups easy. Now i'm struggling for 25 and 50. i really need to stay in shape. If i am phsyically ok then i will be mentally too i think. A lot has been going on and i dunno how to handle it. i've been getting a variety of advice, but it doesn't seem to work for me. i thought the fear of rejection would disappear after i have been rejected, but its like me and her are coming closer and getting to know each other more. We're hanging out more than ever, and meeting up even when there's no reason to be. i don't understand...she rejected me, but she's getting closer. Doesn't she understand how i feel? Doesn't she know that everytime i am with her i feel torn between leaving and staying? Even when i know that i will be miserable later, i always and still feel happy when i'm around her. i guess i don't know how to let go. It doesn't help that she wants to meet up on a non teaching week. i want to finish my critique even if i get a zero for its lateness. Then i will exercise until the pain in my head would be nothing compared to the physical pain i will experience. i still have hope even when i know i shouldn't.

So much to read..

i'm at uni at the moment. It's a real cloudy and rainy day. The perfect weather to get some sleep in my bed where it's nice and warm. But unfortunately i have to write a 1000 word critique thats due tomorrow on Strategy Formulation. Theres literally hundreds of pages to read on how to establish and issues concerning IS/IT Strategy processes. It's so boring...i'm still reading through it. Hopefully i'll get it done by tonight. i saw a lot of my friends at uni today. They were all busy with tutorials or assignments or projects. i hope they all do ok. Now, back to my critique.

Clubbing with Cuz

i spent the night clubbing with my cousin last night. i thought she didn't want to go coz it was raining like crazy and she didn't send me an sms. i was enjoying myself watching tv and watching Terminator when she sent me an sms saying, "Hey, r u coming 2nite?", i was like OMG...crazy. i left the house around 9:30 and went to pick up her 3 friends and then drove to the city. We dropped off her 3 friends at Northbridge, and then went to pick up her other friend who lives in woop woop land in Highgate. That was kinda stressful coz we spent a lot of time finding her because we were at the wrong end of the street. We then parked at the carpark and went to Utopia where there was a kareoke party. i saw my other cousin's cousin there, Jess. Talked a little and decided to go to Metros. Had to drive the friend back to Highgate though...My cousin is so nice and caring to her friends. We then went back to Northbridge and danced until our feet hurt. Also, i can't dance. =P i saw Fidea there as well... i see him all the time there and he's always so busy talking to so many different people. Dropped off my cousin and her friends and arrived home at 4am. Hope my cousin is ok coz she seems to be under some stress. Today i woke up at 11am, had breakfast, showered and slept till 7pm. Not surprisingly, i'm not that tired anymore.

Cousins house

My cousins family is very fun. They are fun to talk to and force feed me so much. Raining so much today had nuthin to do. They forced me to eat lunch with them, and now i have to eat dinner with them as well...

Very depressed

"There's a lot of other fish in the ocean"...but what if i fell for a shark thats already bitten out a large chunk of me and swam off? =( i dunno what to do...i'm so lost. So much is running through my head. i don't know what i'm supposed to do...i keep talking to myself in my head so much. i don't know who i am anymore...its do this or do that... i don't have a will for anything anymore. Lucky i'm scared of pain, otherwise i would let go of everything which is pretty tempting since it would mean the end of my sadness.

Happy Day

i had a really good day today...i don't think i've been that happy in such a long time. i'm still afraid to keep my hopes up so i won't go bonkers yet. i haven't started my critique yet, but i'll do that very soon. i've finished most of my journal for ICT326 already. i'm still into getting more and more music that will keep my mind positive.