Chinese New Year

Well actually Chinese New Year was yesterday. The big feast was the day before. i dunno what to feel about everything. i can still find a bit of happiness but its slowly going away. Even little things make me sad. How can i keep living like this? Is it gonna keep being like this in the future?

Whats wrong with suicide?

i have nothing against suicide as long as its done by adults. Sure, some people wouldn't like it but what if it puts the person out of his misery? Isn't that better than getting him to live a life of sadness? Some people say its selfish, and it would only hurt himself and other people, especially family and friends, but i think in the long run it would be the individual who would be hurting the most. When nobody understands how he feels, or he's tired of pretending to be ok all the time it would be a slow painful torture. Thats why he would choose to kill himself for. i think it would be best to be sad for a short amount of time than to live a long life of sadness and hurt.

New year

The start of a new year for me...no more uni. To be honest i'm not doing that great. Gotta sort myself out. My chicken pox are over so i don't look like a human picnic bar anymore. i'm still in search for happiness...can't seem to find any at the moment though. i've been thinking way too much which is kinda bad. i'm also looking for options. Its not an easy time for me at the moment. Hopefully i'll get by.